Listening to: Nothing
Watching: Crowley... and Spock
I discovered something about myself this weekend that explains a lot of things about me, most especially my interactions with people.
I already knew I loathed stupidity, hypocrisy, rudeness, and the like. They've been at the top of my pet peeves list for as long as said list has existed.
But this weekend I discovered a new item. One that has always been on the list, but far towards the bottom. Something I didn't realize irked me so much until now....
I was already committed to never becoming involved romantically with someone who was lazy, apathetic, or lacked motivation.
But I have recently come to terms with the fact that I cannot handle close relationships of any sort with people who possess such qualities.
I crave activity, motivation, energy... I am not the type to glue myself to a computer/television screen for days on end (I don't usually have time to do so, anyway).
When I hang out with my friends, I usually prefer to be doing something: running, going to the mall, going out to eat... as long as it's something.
I've always had a short attention span. I have to force myself to sit down and study or watch TV unless I'm really in the mood, which isn't often.
The problem here is: What do you do if your best friends are of the opposite type?
I've gotten into many an argument with childhood friends who would rather stay home and be alone than go somewhere and hang out.
I ask them to do stuff with me, they shoot me down, I get offended and push, they stick their heels in the mud and push back... everyone goes away angry.
They can't fathom why I always wanna be doing something, while I can't understand how they could possibly lock themselves in their room all weekend with barely a live human interaction.
It has taken me at least twenty of these arguments to realize their catalyst.
My personality just clashes with theirs.
And I don't know what to do about it.